Today is my birthday
This is a significant birthday: not because of my age (no, it’s not a round-number birthday) but because this is the birthday my mother never got to have.
And that makes me think about all sorts of things: am I living on borrowed time? And shouldn’t I make something of this ‘extra’ time I have been given? And what is the purpose of life, anyway?
To be honest, I always feel a bit depressed before my birthday. No, not because I’m getting older (that would be stupid, wouldn’t it, given the alternative…), but because the approaching birthday always makes me think about my life and how it has turned out. You know: the dreams and goals I had when I was young, and all the excuses I usually come up with for not reaching them… That sort of thing.
You know that person who always sees the silver lining in everything? I’m sure you know someone like that.
Well, I’m the opposite of that: I always expect the worse, and try to anticipate what could potentially go wrong. And even when things are bad, I can still imagine something a hundred times worse. Yep, that’s me: the Oracle of Doom and Gloom. Or simply ‘always the pessimist’, as my darling husband puts it.
Anyway, besides my usual birthday blues, I’ve also been agonising over what is happening in the world today: inward-looking politicians engaging in ideological wargames over a global crisis that puts people’s lives and livelihoods at risk; narcissistic dictators playing with matches when the world is already on fire; and pick and mix hatemongers gleefully using anyone they come across for target practice.
And especially how awful it is that anyone with even a modicum of common sense is too afraid to say anything at all these days, for fear of being convicted of thoughtcrime by the court of social media identity warriors.
But I don’t want to think about any of that today. I want cake and champagne. And I want to dance and laugh and be happy, and feel pretty in this dress with these fabulous statement sleeves.
dress: Nouki / sunglasses: Marimekko (old) / necklace: Kalevala Jewelry /
shoes: Ecco (old) bag: Chanel
What have you been agonising over lately?
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